its like the finish line, when everything just ends.

lately i feel as if i've been walking around in a foggy haze.
i know it doesn't make much sense but thats the best and only way i can describe it.
with a serious lack of motivation and actual care, i find myself avoiding every possible responsibility imaginable and for no reason really. i have sadly become a master at dodging real life to find myself lost in my own fictional world filled with guitar hero, candy, painting, and tattoo designing. and i'll admit, its odd to find myself so carefree these days, especially since you would think i would be stressing about the future and college and other adult nonsense. its true- at this time in my life i am at a critical stage of important decision making but i think there comes a time in which we all come to a point of- i wouldn't call it giving up but rather a strange contentment in a state of which you really aren't content at all. i know what you are thinking, "well thats lucid..." but trust me if you've felt this- you would understand.

and here i am again- as carefree as i may be there is one thing that will still forever haunt me
the curse of over thinking yet the simplist things in life.
its a puzzle to me how one can take something so clear and understandable but with their own hazardous thoughts twist it into something that brings so much confusion

as puzzlesome as it may be, its one thing i unfortunately do best.
i've learned first hand that thoughts are a powerful thing, more powerful than people usually lead them on to be...
change your thoughts, change your world
...and isn't that the truth.